I parent all day, every day, all week and D parents 15 hours a week sometimes less.
Yet we have to share all our decisions, and parenting choices based on this ratio.
The reason we aren't together is because we are so different, every thing about us are polar opposites! It makes making a decision where to go and eat fucking hard, let along how to react to Moo's sensitive moments (tantrums).
We were also bought up very differently so our approach to parenting has again been completely different.
Generally our discussions on parenting become an argument. Because we just can't understand each other.
I've also developed this worry: that the boys will become less important to him now we aren't together. Its niggling at me and making me anxious inside. For me the boys will always be my priority, they consume my mind, I think of little else. I know when I meet someone this won't change!
It's since D has been spending most evenings with his new girlfriend and then his days off too, the boys have become less of a priority. D of course has Moo but it's again with his girlfriend!
I'm panicking that he will have another family with his girlfriend and just as I was his last thought in the last year we were together, the boys could be an after thought to his new life!
Of course D reasures me it isn't the case, he loves the boys and I and it'll never happen...I can't help but think BULLSHIT! I'm obviously in a very pessimistic place right now! HA!
D will feel the same I'm sure when I find someone. It is what it is and there's nothing I can do about it. But right now I'm nervous about the future. I know it's natural and I'm just going through the motions everyone does. But I wish I could just forget about it for now!
